Today I was reading the MARI Book (a book that tells you what your mandalas mean..after you draw them) and found out some pretty fascinating things about 3 of my 6 mandalas.
Mandala #2 "Spiral" I used my two favorite colors: Turquoise and Purple
It fit perfectly into Stage #1 titled "The Void". "In sexual relations lacks the sensual or intimate" The purple meant, "Marks the 1st grief of separation. The leaving of the Beloved! May have a programming of self-sacrifice". The aqua color meant, "Attempting to heal the trauma that may have occurred at these levels". CRAZY?! YES. So..honey, that means I miss you and am still trying to recover from saying goodbye to you 4, almost 5 weeks ago. When I read this one I seriously had a Twilight Zone moment.
Mandala #6 "The Beginning" I had to listen to music while drawing
This one fit into Stage #4 titled "The Beginning". Ironic, much?? Totally freaking me out...same title that I gave my mandala. The pink represents "dependent, lacks energy, may also be at a place to rest and get nurtured, massage might be good". Ya, I'll take a massage. Not lacking energy yet, but maybe when I look at the mandala in say, oh..3 months. The royal blue represents "receptive/intuitive, going back to depths--good mother". I feel that as a MT, I have to be receptive to people's needs, concerns, tension, pain, etc, and as a MT we have to follow our intuition. The "healthy blues" signify "passivity and dependence on the feminine (co-dependence dynamics)". I saw this as me being dependent on my senior interns. I feel myself getting a little uneasy and nervous for having to go out on the hospital floors by myself. With time.
#5 "Mystery" draw mandala on black paper
This mandala fit into Stage #8 called "Functioning Ego". I didn't have time to look up what each specific color meant, but the description of the stage says enough on its own. "One has to come into full adulthood with an identity in the world, is able to be focused, and to be a mature person. One may also be concerned about their career or what they want to do. The specialist lives here".
Throughout this internship, I hope to find my identity as a Music Therapist. Before starting only 3 weeks ago, I thought I wanted to work with children with physical and mental disabilities. I may have already proven myself wrong.
So...try out the mandalas. They are quite amazing and can teach you a lot about yourself...things you never knew!
xoxo
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